"Adoption Miscarriage" Part 1

We have come across a few roadblocks and we are now putting our adoption plans on hold.

Some of the roadblocks:

• This last week we were supposed to take our adoption education class and I was sick and we had to cancel. (Kevin had the time off of work, and I encouraged him to still stay home. The first day he did a little painting and then took us all to the park. Him and the girls played and I just relaxed and read on the sidelines. The second day we were able to eat lunch with friends and head to Bumpa and Nana's house to spend the night. It was a wonderful blessing!!) So, this big part of our homestudy is put off until at least January.
  
• The Minister of Social Welfare that was going to lift the adoption ban in Sierra Leone was fired...and now we are unsure when the ban may be lifted or how the process will go once the ban has been lifted. We would maybe have to reside in SL for weeks or months and we aren't able to do that at this time.
  
• We came up with a few options of "Where to adopt" from next, but they all have questionable aspects. Meaning, we're not sure if they are quite the right fit for us.
  
• My sicknesses these past two weeks (and L's) included 3 doctor visits, 1 doctor call and 5 prescriptions and lots of laying on the couch for me. I could barely care for my 2 children. How can I add to that right now? They both (especially Kj) need some extra loving, snuggling and reassurance now to recover from my illnesses. It really affected Kj--she's been acting out a lot. I now know what happens to her when she doesn't have as much quality time/loving!!
  

Adoption Miscarriage. That is the term that Kevin used. We have told a lot of people that we are planning on adopting and they all expect to see a new little one in our family soon. They expect to hear our stories of anticipation, progress, and excitement. If we continue now, it would just be for appearances, because now you all know that we are adopting and are looking forward to that day with us. But we can't continue right now. We don't feel at peace about it. We can't make this life long decision with uncertainty.

One thing I have found in all my researching:

A lady who lived in the Democratic Republic of the Congo for 4 1/2 years started an organization to help fund an orphanage for babies whose mothers died in childbirth. The orphanage takes in the babies until they are 5 years old (school age) and then sends them back to live with their fathers. They also try to sponsor the children through their schooling. Here is her blog and her organizations website. Her blog has a lot of good questions to ask if you are wanting to adopt internationally...and right now I can't find that specific post...